I'm A Man Who Doesn't Know How To Sell A Contradiction

[Of all my youthful follies (and they are legion and revealing themselves anew every week), one especially pernicious example that I expressed in my early 20s was a hope...no, an expectation that with age would come wisdom and serenity. Like, automatically...gift free with purchase. I'm not sure upon what evidence I based this theory. My parents, my grandparents, their friends, my teachers...no one ever presented as having Figured Things Out. I just...well, wishful thinking gets us thru a lot, right?]

[Tonight, once again, I showed that I've learned almost nothing in 37 1/2 years on this sorry spinning ball of rock. It's OK, really; I suppose one wouldn't be human if one didn't occasionally find oneself crying into one's chicken quesadilla, asking one's dear friend for understanding and... He got where I was, he told me where to get off, and we parted with a hug and an "I love you." But, man...it's not like I haven't been there before.]

[The myth of the karmic wheel...I think we made it up to remind ourselves to heed the roadmarks we've already set down along the way in this what, lacking better evidence, I think probably is our only go around. Learn, already!]

[Red, gold, and green...red, gold and greeeeeen...]

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