I Don't Know...

[...anything.]

[I don't know if Barack Obama really heralds change in any way that I should be excited about.]

[I don't know if Hillary Clinton represents the tired old thinking of the past.]

[I don't know if it's Ralph Nader's fault that George W. Bush is President.]

[I don't know if No Country For Old Men deserved to win the Best Picture Oscar tonight. It was pretty damned good.]

[I don't know why the gutter punks in my neighborhood have the handsomest, most well-cared-for, and happiest looking dogs in a city filled with them.]

[I don't know why it's "United States Virgin Islands" but "American Samoa."]

[I don't know if I'm supposed to be tired yet of the wind and the rain and the cold.]

[I don't know if I'm really ready to date anyone. But it's been nice to be asked.]

[I don't know if what I think might be sleep apnea is what's making the hours between 3 and 6 A.M. a kind of hell.]

[I don't know what my new doctor will tell me at my first appointment in too long this week.]

[I do know that one of my truly best friends has a hundred T-cells and his whoppin' 147 pounds clings to his six-foot frame, and I can't stand to see it. I love him so much, and he limps and groans quietly as we talk and try to walk, and he's forty and living with his parents in the far East Bay and I'm not going to be able to see him often enough. I'm never going to be able to do enough.]

[I lied in my last entry. I'm depressed, but it's not like before.]

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